dream of 08/01/08

I've had several nights of where I'm not sleeping very well, so was surprised to dream.This was just one of several, but disturbed me greatly My nan walks into a room where I am standing, she is smaller, more frail than I remember when I last saw her (prob '93?when I left the UK)I run to her and hug her so tight, I am crying torrents and say through my tears and sobs that I missed her so much (we parted on bad terms) and she says I know you have. As we are hugging our throats seem to come together, I try to pull away but can't and I start to feel from her throat cancer. Now obviously I don't know what that feels like, but my throat begins to close over and tightens, I can still breathe, barely. I just know it is cancer.I wake abruptly.It's still upsetting me now.She was a smoker.I'm not certain Nan is still alive, or maybe she is getting ready to pass. I will try to find out. OK just recalled the place where I saw Nan was at a laundrette. Everything was white.In other dreams I saw my grandad (nans hubby) who passed and is my guardian angel but saw him at a distance, I saw caravans and holidays to plymouth(UK) all things I used to do as a child with them- I don't know about plymouth though.I saw me driving a coach in an army uniform and I spray stuff on soldiers sitting on coach to make them sleep, i then 'escape', as i go around a bush a soldier from the bus aims a grenade at me, it blows but misses me I run over a hedge and see a huge palm tree and in the palm tree is hanging a basket (like you'd put flowers in) I think it's perfect for hiding so climb and get in the basket (I am soaking wet) it's then I see grandad Chris.I think I also saw my dad's side of family (who have passed). That wasn't real clear.No wonder I'm tired